The Usual thing happen today.. I really Had a Bad Day.. a day i never expected..a day of shame and hatred towards myself..becos of others. i never knew a person use the owrd trust just to do this kind of thing..that is not trust..that is backstab.. haiz.. well what is done is done.. once u poke my back i'm never letting u poke again neiter am i going to remove the knife from my back or poke it back at u.. i'll let it stay there still the wound covers it up by itself along with the knife..so remember the day.. well.. i find it a messy and stressful day..because alot of drama happen today.. which is what i find ar.. i am NOT drifting away.. its me basically changing to who i wanna be...and no one wants someone to stop changing.. if they want..that means they dun like the person changing becos he/she is getting better.. well i pretty much dun care..the blog is a place for me to express my feelings anyway.. i dun need anyone to care about me..love me.. take care of me or spy on me.. or whatever.. unless u are someone i treasure..but nope... i never treasure anyone yet..becos i cannot find the correct one.. buut soon going to..haha. how could a simple lie led to many3 things..thats what i hate about.. things can become big by just lieing once..its no good at all.. haiz.. i just feel like..argh... i need them now.. they are important noe to me.. haiz... if i never go for the practice for POP i would have been more excited and enjoyed myself somewhere else..but well i got to scarifice..but even thou i did that.. i suffer inside.. its like the pain outside is not as painful as inside... i can feel it.. but i think i dun want SHARE with anyone in school.. just leave me alone of my life... dun care about how my life is..care about urs first which is more important.. dun always think about us..u are not my parents or lover or whatever..just a friend and remain as that..which will help out better.. pls.. just dun play with my feelings..my things..or my character or my attitude or my outside friends.. u want to be friends with me go ahead..but dun go beyond the line of knowing me better..that is a big NO NO.. i'll never open up to anyone in school at all.. its a great danger.. so u want to be my friend go ahead..just talk about normal stuff ... and i know the others will think of me as the course of trouble which happens all the time..but well FUCK off.. i dun care... hahaha.. do u think i really give a damn.. NO i do.. not even a single bit... hahaha.. thats all i got to say..thats all..
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