da-da-da come on baby we ain't gonna live forever

U just dunno how i feel!! Friday, May 30, 2008 9:45 AM

I just could not make the decision seriously!
when everyone keeps asking me whether are we still dancing or not!
seriously everyone
and lastly the decision had to be made by me
and i guess i had to make it
and yes i did made it.and its no

REASONS!
- We are part of the ICs in NDP and when all are gone who is gonna lead the whole 100 plus ppl?
- 1 more month or so too come before perviews and everything need to be done
- Sat is the only day where we have combine rehearsals.. if it was on tue we totally dun mind not gg
- We only have 1 slot to do out thing on sat!
- and the organisers really needs our help

so comparing the odds i made the decision
Its was super last min
I really cannot make the decision
becos i knew that if i whatever decision i make there WILL be faults
and yes there was
but well i knew i made the right decision
and feeling guilty on the other hand..
on boths sides if i did pick the other option it will be the same for me!
but i did it
base on facing the odds
and base on grp disscussion
U did not know how much i really2 wanted to do the show
most of them did not want becos of NDP
but i insisted to really2 want to do it
but than i realised that a leader as to listen to others opinion on y dun want and stuff
Its not just my freaking attitude u know
seriously
when u said that to me
i was very2 hurt u know tat..
super2 hurt!
since when i had attitude?
i just super hurt inside that it just sparked me off seriously
sorry if i sparked off
but i guess at that point of time the emotions was shown was right
and my batt was falt

I had to pay Hp bill
which i have not saved money! not enough!
My relatives hates me
My family hates me
I dun talk to my father anymore
we consider each other dead
my elder brother is gg to be next
than followed by my mum
school projects are in a mess
Screwed up Accounting CA
Tired
Everywhere is messy!
and on top of that commitment to NDP!

I just had to hide it all away just by smiling
if i had so much in me..
i would have just really showed my true colours at first look
but i smiled and be cheerful
all became freaking attitude
I never contacted anyone

I dun even know whether i gonna have my HP anymore
I dun even know whether i can leave in my house or not!
I dun even know who am I
so how can u even know whether am i having a freaking attitude!
Thanks alot for everything thou
Thanks

Let us start by saying that being a leader is not glamorous. Many think about the position and not the work behind the position. There is very little glory in it. The load of responsibility given to a leader is enormous. On top of that, he will sometimes be publicly mocked, blamed, and criticized. So why do individuals take on this role? Duty. There are situations that just lead to someone being in charge, whether it be his superior skill or just plain courage. This poor soul who takes on the yoke is now responsible for the outcome though most of the work will be on the followers.

Thus, to achieve a desirable outcome, a leader must be able to gain the support of her followers. If she can't, then she is ineffective. Therefore, be aware of the heavy burden all leaders have to carry. Below is a listing of what it takes to be leader:

Listen to your group. You don't need to agree and do all they suggest, but at least consider their points of view. Doing so, you will gain much goodwill for they have someone who cares.

Be 100 percent committed to the organization. If you're not, why should your people? When they see someone who only thinks of himself, they will be discouraged. But when they see someone who looks out for the group, even above personal gain and be ready and willing to suffer the consequences of risks taken, they will indeed follow without hesitation

You can take the loneliness. When you're the leader, feelings of bleakness will be with you many times. On occasion, you will bouts of depression for there is no one you can truly consult with. Taking on duties that are unprecedented will do that to you. Your character and emotional control will have to be strong enough to navigate through this mire.

Get rid of individuals who are against you personally. No doubt you will have people who will disagree with your policies. In fact, you need thinking people who can question your rationale; you don't want yes-men. But when certain individuals attack you as a person, you need to let them go. This behavior will only bring division.