OMG!!

These were the pictures taken during 2007

When I first started to really dance!

Haikal,Izzy,Dawn,Zeella,Me

Got Rudie also..but cant find his..

Omg!

i really2 miss the time we had together!

All the fun and laughter

All the Tears and pain

All The Suffering and Pushing

All Thanks to Izzy and Zeella

Practice those days

Used to be like On time Practice

Those late catch up urself

never come also the same

Izzy would Scold upside down!

And Practice means Practice

Once we step into dance studio

We start to practice till the time we were given to end!

No smoking breaks! nor Food breaks!

Drinks got.. 5mins or less!

Air Con Room, But We sweat as if the weather was 35Degrees!

It was super fun!! We all suffered together!!

No excuses from anyone,

I remembered i was once very sick!

Izzy Ask me to come down to dance!

and i went becos i know tat i at least can sit one side and see wats going on and wat to expect!

Now i comparing to Wat i have been doing,

You gals are lucky, i just never say much..

alot of time wasted!

Last time i cannot dance at all! cannot even shake my body or booty or ripple

And izzy's choreograhpy was tuff tat time for me..

And i still never give up,

I still get fucked up

But in the end it brought me up

Now i give my best in everything i do..

All Out!

Last time practice!

Izzy teach we also must give energy

Even when learning also

Even when we showing also

Even when we Practicing also!

No energy will kene fucked up!

And

He taught Us how to work together!

How team energy is important!!

But

Comparing it to the ppl now which i have

Haiz.. i stress!

I dunno how to help these gals anymore

I Feel like wanna Say good Bye and just leave..

From The start of the 1st day,

you guys asked for me and ryna's help

We said yes, and we were soft to u guys..

but sooner or later u all took advantage..

Last time

Izzy Teaching us time, no one will ask question or watever,

No Handphone allowed!

When he teaching means he teaching..

any nonsense he make noise!

no laughing2 all.. unless he laughs..

now,

I dun see the seriousness in these gals

maybe 1 or 2 yes..but i dunno...

Last time

When we gossip or bitch

We do it right infront of our faces..

Now,

I dunt even know wats going around

I feel like somethings happening in the room whenever i step into the studio

Maybe me and ryna regret doing all these from the start and even entering the studio

Maybe we dont...

Its just a mixed feeling!

I talked about this to Ryna

She knows how i feel

we both know!

Becos we know tat this will happen!

maybe tats why we both fucking angry

These is another issue

Even When we are old,

We must set good example

We must do so, so that the younger generation will do so too

If we the old ones keep recalling the old problems

definately the young ones will never forget..

we must not show them we still remember that issue..

so they will think tat "ouh they forgot about it, i guess we should too"

If We keep going back to the past, we never going to see the future.

I and ryna still remember wat was said by EVEYONE at the 1st time we taught u guys

Now i and her wonder,

was our decision wrong..

I still See hope,

But Everyday its decreasing

I Teach everytime

I decide wat u guys doing

I decide the song

I push u all

I think of choreography for u all, even thou i know i'm not good

I know whose good and whose not good

I know Who can dance and who is trying their best,

who is putting in energy

who can catch the steps fast

who shows the steps cleaner

who really follows the beat

who puts in flava

who is committed

who is deserving

who is going extra mile to practice on themself

And In the End,

one person's effort and decision is not bigger

everyone has to make it..

i and ryna remember wat was said during the 1st day!

Very freaking 1st day!

Why I want a all girl grp!!

Finally i can share it here without any interuptions!!!!!!!!!!!!

the reason becos

if there was 10 girls

the energy they put together will be more powerful!!

and looking the current girls..just 6

their energy like only to 3 or 2 gals in total!

and

why i dun want a mix grp

These gals are weak..

yes2 i know if u put the guys in, and wat if they are weak also right

no matter wat..if u put 2 guys in..

the ppl will mostly look at the 2 guys only..and the gals will look like backup dancers

look at me and the gals during last performance..the same thing happened!

regardless 2 or 4..the guys will have more energy to power them out..

becos the gals are doing well enough to proff their energy is there..

if the gals can do tat! i will not say anything..

but its sooooo obv there are not.. so a all gal grp will allow them to use eveyone's energy

to make it into a bigger energy!

logic!

And Foremost i know wats their chemistry like among them

Its not about judging just by seeing

if u all dun get it,

I dunno wat to say..

Why I writing these all in my blog and not saying it out

becos i think i not the same V i used to be

i think i dunt wanna have issues

So those who read these,

and feel its reffering to u and u are unhappy about it..

Tats not my problem,

dun even bother approaching me and talking about these,

you wanna tell the whole world go ahead,

i wont bother..

wanna start putting fake names or asking friends to hate tag me go ahead,

i wont bother...

Wanna Show stupid Faces or Talk about me when i go for breaks

Go ahead.. I love tat

Becos at least i'm still In Ppl's taughts

After months and its the same shit

So we Cant be bothered already

its like we used to it

even been through more worst than this issues!

But we will only bother about 1 person

Just 3 pics

and it helps me throw out all my feelings!

It really shows old times are the best times!

I really Miss Izzy's Teaching Alot!

He is really one of a kind

And always be love by me

And Zeella as well

Dawn as well

And haikal as well

PS: If got many spelling error or watever shit! i dun bother...

Becos i know you will say, talk so big but spelling wrong or english sucks or wat

i cant be bothered...